Well I went out to celebrate my weight loss and ended up bingeing. One hazel-nut chocolate truffle sent my appetite into over drive. The most of what I ate thankfully was salad (3 of them though) and some whole grain bread, which is at least lots of fiber. Then came the blue berry muffin, and the potato chips and the 2 bowls of cereal. Over all I ingested about 2000 cals yesterday. Isn't that wonderful...ugh.
The scale says 94. Ouch...more than ouch, I kind of feel like carving off 2 pounds of flesh to make up for it. I'm hoping that it's from food still being in my tummy. I'll check my weight again tonight. This means a 7 day fast now. I never made it to 6 days before, so this may a bit much for me. I have to be strong. I really wish I had a fasting buddy though. It's so hard on my own.
My friends yesterday after seeing me stuff my fat ass, kept asking "are you preggers, or getting your period?" (I rarely used to get my period but before I got real low, it was coming around more often. I've dropped low enough that it doesn't bother me anymore at all.) That's great I guess, now they think there is something wrong with me though. I don't care what anyone says to me this week I'm not eating. Nothing but water, maybe some tums, gum and green tea. light exercise if I can manage it. Exercise and long fasts are harsh but effective for me. I might pass out though, so I have to be careful. By the end of the week I want to be in the 80's.
I just need to be strong, I can do this. I can make it 7 days and then slowly on the 8th day ease back into food. I need to look so tips for coming off a fast. Usually I can do it, but my methods have been getting fucked up lately. I need to know what to go for as to not binge. the binge wasn't even that good either.
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