I'm 91lbs now. Yay hopefully by tonight I can be 90 and back in 15 bmi land. I'd freaking love it if I could get down to 89 but I'm not banking on it. My plan for today involve class (creative drama), drinking a good amount of water with no gum since I chew spat yesterday. Then I'm heading to the mall to try and get my costume. I hope my dad can come home and spare me like 10 bucks in case I'm short. Maybe I should head home and then go to the mall. More exercise right?
I may do just that. I haven't spoken with my ex. I'm so scared, our phone call was brief last night. That kiss really messed the both of us up. But I'll see how that goes today. From now on I will be writing (well trying to) twice a day in the post. I'll update again later.
Something for me to track meal idea for the coming weeks:
A 3 smart ones desserts (170) -510 Cake, Strawberry , Cookie
B 3 skinny cow truffle bars (100)-300 Vanilla
C 2 lean pockets (260) or (240) -520 or -480 Chicken garlic white pizza or ? anything 240
D 7 11 salad (80)-80
1410 or 1370
190 or 230 left over
E 190- healthy choice -160 plus 30 broccoli
F 230- lean cuisine -170 plus 30 broccoli plus 30 cals of cheese
G +150 blah i want m&m's w/ ice cream (50)x3
H +50 Fruits or Veggies
190
Mon HD - Tues ABG - Weds ABG - THurs ABG - Fri C - Sat C - Sun E
230
Mon HD - Tues ABG - Weds ABG - THurs ABG - Fri C - Sat C - Sun F
Total=1800 cals
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m 400 tue0 w400 thurs0 f400 sat0 sun400 =1600
m500 tues0 w500 thurs0 f500 sat0 sun0 = 1500
mon200 tues200 weds200 thurs200 fri200 sat200 sun200=1400
mon300 tue0 wed300 thur0 fri300 sat0 sun300= 1200
mon150 tue200 wed150 thur200 fri150 sat200 sun150=1200
mon150 tue159 wed150 thur150 fri150 sat150 sun150 =1050
mon250 tue0 wed250 thur0 fri250 sat0 sun250= 1000
mon200 tue0 wed200 thur0 fri200 sat0 sun200 =800
mon100 tue100 wed100 thur100 fri100 sat100 sun100 =700
"mix it up"
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-m&m prezels 150 (split into 3 = 50 each) Count the amount in bag then divide by 3
-Nemo's cake 300-290 (stay away from the carrot cake-390!)
-Porabello burger= 100, 22 mushroom, 25 cheese, 4 lettuce(2 leaves), 5 tomato, 10 sause(2 tsp), 15 ketchup(1tbls), 3 spray (3), 16 onion(4 slices)
-10 of sugar free stawberry jam (?), 50 Nutella (1/2 tbls) 40 bread(1 slice)= 100
-13 chips 130 + 13 dips 65 =200
-Vita top muffin 90-100
-light string Sargento cheese 50
-Popcorn 100 bags
-50 cal biscuit
-90 Quaker oats bars
-100 bars
-1 guava puff 300
-skinny cow sandwich 140
- perry's ice cream strawberry shortcake bar 140
-100 cal packs
-Soup 70-100
-special k crisps 50
-veggie dipper 130
-Ferrero Rocher 220 (for 3)
-Ferrero Rondnoir 160 (fro 3)
-Godiva truffles 210 (for 2) -I have a card that lets me get one free every month so I needed to know
-10 of fruit or veggies?
-Pretzel time 340-390 (yikes! but I love them)
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-going out 800-1000 max (less is more) will be only meal for the day
(outback, Fridays, red lobster, cheeburger, subways, panera bread, etc.)
Fast 1 day before 1 after or 2 after
-Unknown intake (i.e. Kumo's (sushi bar), chocolate fondue at doles(aim for fruit, little pretzels, cookies and gram crackers))
Fast 2 days before 2 after or 4 after
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-again unknown intake = day total (pizza slice, teriyaki chicken,bagel egg bacon and cheese, burger, sweet potato pie(may be able to find out last two)
Fast 1 day after or 2 if its really upsetting or seems like alot
-Later-
I freaking binged again! I'm so damn weak. I purged as much as I could, at least I could have possible 800 cals still within me. I haven't weighed, I'm to scared. Tonight I'm gonna work my ass off. the fast restarts again. Damn it. I'm so pissed with myself. I hope I don't gain. Before I ate I was 90lbs lets see how tonight or the morning fairs. I hope I'm not fatter, please I'm sorry Ana that I failed. I will try again. Damn. It took me everything not to cry.
Something for me to track meal idea for the coming weeks:
A 3 smart ones desserts (170) -510 Cake, Strawberry , Cookie
B 3 skinny cow truffle bars (100)-300 Vanilla
C 2 lean pockets (260) or (240) -520 or -480 Chicken garlic white pizza or ? anything 240
D 7 11 salad (80)-80
1410 or 1370
190 or 230 left over
E 190- healthy choice -160 plus 30 broccoli
F 230- lean cuisine -170 plus 30 broccoli plus 30 cals of cheese
G +150 blah i want m&m's w/ ice cream (50)x3
H +50 Fruits or Veggies
190
Mon HD - Tues ABG - Weds ABG - THurs ABG - Fri C - Sat C - Sun E
230
Mon HD - Tues ABG - Weds ABG - THurs ABG - Fri C - Sat C - Sun F
Total=1800 cals
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m 400 tue0 w400 thurs0 f400 sat0 sun400 =1600
m500 tues0 w500 thurs0 f500 sat0 sun0 = 1500
mon200 tues200 weds200 thurs200 fri200 sat200 sun200=1400
mon300 tue0 wed300 thur0 fri300 sat0 sun300= 1200
mon150 tue200 wed150 thur200 fri150 sat200 sun150=1200
mon150 tue159 wed150 thur150 fri150 sat150 sun150 =1050
mon250 tue0 wed250 thur0 fri250 sat0 sun250= 1000
mon200 tue0 wed200 thur0 fri200 sat0 sun200 =800
mon100 tue100 wed100 thur100 fri100 sat100 sun100 =700
"mix it up"
-----------
-m&m prezels 150 (split into 3 = 50 each) Count the amount in bag then divide by 3
-Nemo's cake 300-290 (stay away from the carrot cake-390!)
-Porabello burger= 100, 22 mushroom, 25 cheese, 4 lettuce(2 leaves), 5 tomato, 10 sause(2 tsp), 15 ketchup(1tbls), 3 spray (3), 16 onion(4 slices)
-10 of sugar free stawberry jam (?), 50 Nutella (1/2 tbls) 40 bread(1 slice)= 100
-13 chips 130 + 13 dips 65 =200
-Vita top muffin 90-100
-light string Sargento cheese 50
-Popcorn 100 bags
-50 cal biscuit
-90 Quaker oats bars
-100 bars
-1 guava puff 300
-skinny cow sandwich 140
- perry's ice cream strawberry shortcake bar 140
-100 cal packs
-Soup 70-100
-special k crisps 50
-veggie dipper 130
-Ferrero Rocher 220 (for 3)
-Ferrero Rondnoir 160 (fro 3)
-Godiva truffles 210 (for 2) -I have a card that lets me get one free every month so I needed to know
-10 of fruit or veggies?
-Pretzel time 340-390 (yikes! but I love them)
------------
-going out 800-1000 max (less is more) will be only meal for the day
(outback, Fridays, red lobster, cheeburger, subways, panera bread, etc.)
Fast 1 day before 1 after or 2 after
-Unknown intake (i.e. Kumo's (sushi bar), chocolate fondue at doles(aim for fruit, little pretzels, cookies and gram crackers))
Fast 2 days before 2 after or 4 after
------------
-again unknown intake = day total (pizza slice, teriyaki chicken,bagel egg bacon and cheese, burger, sweet potato pie(may be able to find out last two)
Fast 1 day after or 2 if its really upsetting or seems like alot
-Later-
I freaking binged again! I'm so damn weak. I purged as much as I could, at least I could have possible 800 cals still within me. I haven't weighed, I'm to scared. Tonight I'm gonna work my ass off. the fast restarts again. Damn it. I'm so pissed with myself. I hope I don't gain. Before I ate I was 90lbs lets see how tonight or the morning fairs. I hope I'm not fatter, please I'm sorry Ana that I failed. I will try again. Damn. It took me everything not to cry.
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