Fast day 3

Today was a tricky, long day. I have zero energy. I had one stick of gum, 2 cups of green tea (one more brewing right now, and a cold cup of water. I'm 92lbs again. My body must be holding onto every last ounce of fat it can though, I'm not losing weight very quickly. I weighed in tonight already, so I'm hoping for a change in the morning. Its very unlikely.

I have a test tomorrow and I hope I will be able to make it through. I'm going to be at school fro 12 hours all together. I don't even know how that will be. At least I won't have to make much excuses for not eating. Can't eat in class. Well I can, but if I don't, no one will say anything. I've been really hungry all day. Dreaming of food, but I'm being very strong. I turned down, mushrooms, chips, chicken and cookies. I visited my friend during dinner and told her I ate dinner before I came.

My family made note of the fact that I always have to go when they have dinner. I didn't have much retort, not enough energy. I just assured them I'd eat at my friends house. This weekend we are all going out for her sisters birthday. I won't be drinking. It will be dancing though, and that's the end of the fast. I won't be able to eat till Sunday morning. I have to crash at my friends place, so breakfast may be an issue. Shoot, after party food may be an issue. 

A lot of people are noticing me not eating now, or what I'm eating as well as my weird habits (standing while I eat, cutting everything up into small pieces, placing my fork down between each bite.) Damn my good Ana habits. They are about ready to give me away. Most of my family doesn't know about that stuff, maybe my cousin, she yelled at me for eating rice crackers. My friend was Ana before so she's extremely suspicious. I keep catching her offering food and giving me looks when I turn it down. This fast has to end so I can start putting food in my mouth again to shut these people up. Lets hope for 91 in the morning. Please oh please. I want a new low. I want to be 88lbs for Saturday. I'm gonna wear this strapless top that was really tight when I bought it a few months ago.