Food and heartache

 Fuck food and fuck love.
All the two ever do is cause me pain. I'm not up for either anymore. I don't want to be. Why do I crave both though? I'm always starving for both...
Sorry I'm so dramatic today.
I'm the type of person who likes things to go as planned. So when things get switched around I'm not a happy camper. Today me and my ex were supposed to hang out in his house all day, but now he's gonna be at the college until like 4-5 pm. 

Seriously?

He says oh I have a bunch of stuff to do, just meet me at my house. 5pm just so happens to be his "girlfriend's" time to get home for her curfew. If that's the case tell me so. He's always trying to sugar coat what he's doing. I feel if you care that it bothers me, why doing at all? If you are just going to be with her, forget about me already.

I don't think that's the case. I think she was just a rebound and he won't admit to that. Even his friends say that to him. We were together for 5 years. Not 3 months after we break up he gets with this girl.

That my friends is what you call a rebound.

I don't want to be mean or a bitch but, I'm not giving up on 5 years. I'm still in love with him even when he acts like a jerk, I act like a bitch sometimes so I can't really say much to it. Either way, I'm gonna try to get him back anyways. No younger fitter little girl is gonna stop me. I don't have to be cruel or anything but, I want him back.

I'm gonna head to the college at 2 to be there by 3 and we are leaving at 4, because the meal for two I bought yesterday is a frozen meal and can't be out that long. (I'm packing ice). His girl has legs and doesn't need a babysitter to walk her to the damn train.

I wanted to spend a nice amount of time with him today, and he completely forgot I was coming over and basically blew me off for everyone else. Mean while I'm bringing food for him to eat, cause I know he doesn't have any at home. I'm even eating for him. If it were up to me I'd be starving myself as much as possible till the 20th, but It worries him to see me not eat. 

I guess I'm just frustrated. I want to be the main girl of his life.

Out of my depressed stuff I'll just give a few updates. My dad is passing me a pretty penny to go food shopping for myself since he's going out of state for a while. So I'm gonna pick up those Walden farm products and give a review for you guys. I'm thinking about adding a new page just for reviewing healthy or low cal products. I'm trying out a whole bunch of stuff hopefully so I think that's the plan. I'll call it like "Ana's taste" or "Ana ate"? Not very sure, throw so Idea's at me guys. I like to make my blog helpful to everyone. I'm also looking into vitalicious products, it's low cal and super healthy, which is great...for us. lol.

@ Broken- I'm really happy with my BMI, I got a bit of a cold but it cleared up a lot today. Either way don't be too worried, I'm trying to take care of myself as much as possible. Thank you though. I can't believe you don't have pretzels though! That's my crack lol.
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@Clem- Thank you so much, I can really feel your support too. I'm not as tired as I was before and I think the weight loss is the only thing that has me happy lately. Thank you so much. Let me know if ya ever need anything. I keep pretty much up to date with your blog.

@ Erin Rose- Yep those were real ad's. It was in the city and it was near a convention about obesity I believe, which is priceless, but kind of mean I think. Either way I lol'd when I found that out.
I'm not so sure about my pretzels this weekend cause I'm not sure what we are doing anymore, I might make them go to the mall just to get it. I like mine with honey mustard or pizza sause (which actually has less cals)
I've never been to arby's I hope you enjoy.