Well this morning's weigh in is 90lbs BMI 15.9, ah I love being in the 15's. I'm on track even though I ended the night on a bad note yesterday. I went and ate 2 muffins (240) and 3 kiss (60). It wasn't much but I purged most of it anyways. I got scared. I did 250 crunches, 100 squats and 40 push ups as well. I was just so scared, I was shaking as I ate before too. I called my ex up to talk about how I feel and lets just say, it didn't go over well.
Today is a test, very important cause I'm failing this class. So for I've had half an apple (50) I think I'm gonna have a bowl of cereal and maybe a muffin, it depends on how full I am after the cereal. With just the cereal is will be (210) the muffin bumps it up to (330!) I don't know about that, we will see. I really need the energy. Since I hot my goal weight #1 I get a reward. Tomorrow if I can it is chocolate. Probably safety chocolate, my 170 treats from smart ones. I've been wanting cake so bad.
Ugh yea had 450 cal breakfast, so that's it for today, I better do well on this test. I have a huge workout ahead of me. Tomorrow I have to aim much lower. Freaking cereal has so many cals. I want to get my safety food, so I don't keep doing this.
Well the test was hard, so was my day. My water bottle opened in my bag as I sat down to take the damn test and I had to walk around with a wet butt most of the day. Other than that I got to spend time with my ex, which was nice, we talked for over an hour tonight too. I really want to hang with him this weekend, but his girl wants him to go play pool, he said he might blow her off though, which makes me smile, that makes me a bad person, but I don't care. I want to be with him, and I don't want to let anyone get in my way.
I sadly had 150 more cals today, 1/3 a bag of popcorn and 7 pretzels. Total intake today is 600. I'm still 90lbs and I feel I messed up any chance of being 89 in the morning. I f I am I get my chocolate. if not I don't know what I'm going to do. I have 3 weeks to lose 15 pounds or at least 10. I feel like I just might be fasting again. If I am 89 in the morning, its reward time, if not, its strict intake for messing up today.
Ugh yea had 450 cal breakfast, so that's it for today, I better do well on this test. I have a huge workout ahead of me. Tomorrow I have to aim much lower. Freaking cereal has so many cals. I want to get my safety food, so I don't keep doing this.
Well the test was hard, so was my day. My water bottle opened in my bag as I sat down to take the damn test and I had to walk around with a wet butt most of the day. Other than that I got to spend time with my ex, which was nice, we talked for over an hour tonight too. I really want to hang with him this weekend, but his girl wants him to go play pool, he said he might blow her off though, which makes me smile, that makes me a bad person, but I don't care. I want to be with him, and I don't want to let anyone get in my way.
I sadly had 150 more cals today, 1/3 a bag of popcorn and 7 pretzels. Total intake today is 600. I'm still 90lbs and I feel I messed up any chance of being 89 in the morning. I f I am I get my chocolate. if not I don't know what I'm going to do. I have 3 weeks to lose 15 pounds or at least 10. I feel like I just might be fasting again. If I am 89 in the morning, its reward time, if not, its strict intake for messing up today.
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