I almost forgot to write anything here this morning. I'm that tired. I really did a number on myself. That purge has my throat even more sore than yesterday. I'm aiming for just the 60 cal kicks bowl for the day. I really don't want to go to any classes, let alone move.
I want it to be friday so I can hang with my ex. I wish my damn weight would drop back down already. Still 88lbs. Ugh so tired. How the hell am I gonna get through today?
When did my life become so boring? Hopefully tonight when I weigh in it will say 87 once again and then perhaps 86 soon enough. I need to get back into working out more. I've felt so weak lately, I haven't been doing much. Gotta work harder. Cause I feel horrible about it.
-later-
I made it through today on 60 cals and what do I have to show for it...
87lbs, that's what.
I'd be more excited but I'm still dead tired. I'm feeling a bit under the weather but I'm planning early bed so I don't eat anything. I'm insane and come home to watch the food network and kept flipping between the food channels and "Whats eating you." I found that a little funny. I have to figure out what to eat for tomorrow morning, cause I need some energy to do this power point presentation due Monday.
@ Broken- I try to take vitamins everyday, except when I fast cause it upsets my stomach. I take one a day for her teens. It helps with my immune system and skin mostly. I haven't been taking them as often as I should, but I did this morn, hopefully it will help.
@ Erin Rose- Thanks for the advise, I wish I had the money to buy goal weight clothes, a nice pair of 00 jeans, extra small t shirts and a smaller cup bra, I think I need an 30 A now. I did actually get in my 100 crunches tonight, plus 13 leg lifts, I do the amount of pounds left to lose...its weird I know lol. As for throat and cold from purging, I'm not sure but it seems like it for the both us then. Its been two days and my throat is still flaming. I hope you have fun for your B-day, if you go out to eat try Panera bread they have salad there that is really low cal. It's cool you are going to NYC. I'd tell you to drop by, wouldn't that be weird. I've always wanted to meet up with someone from PT na d stuff, but I'd be so nervous. I'd meet them and my friends would be like "who's that?" Me: "Oh just a girl I met on an eating disorder site." XD.
I made it through today on 60 cals and what do I have to show for it...
87lbs, that's what.
I'd be more excited but I'm still dead tired. I'm feeling a bit under the weather but I'm planning early bed so I don't eat anything. I'm insane and come home to watch the food network and kept flipping between the food channels and "Whats eating you." I found that a little funny. I have to figure out what to eat for tomorrow morning, cause I need some energy to do this power point presentation due Monday.
@ Broken- I try to take vitamins everyday, except when I fast cause it upsets my stomach. I take one a day for her teens. It helps with my immune system and skin mostly. I haven't been taking them as often as I should, but I did this morn, hopefully it will help.
@ Erin Rose- Thanks for the advise, I wish I had the money to buy goal weight clothes, a nice pair of 00 jeans, extra small t shirts and a smaller cup bra, I think I need an 30 A now. I did actually get in my 100 crunches tonight, plus 13 leg lifts, I do the amount of pounds left to lose...its weird I know lol. As for throat and cold from purging, I'm not sure but it seems like it for the both us then. Its been two days and my throat is still flaming. I hope you have fun for your B-day, if you go out to eat try Panera bread they have salad there that is really low cal. It's cool you are going to NYC. I'd tell you to drop by, wouldn't that be weird. I've always wanted to meet up with someone from PT na d stuff, but I'd be so nervous. I'd meet them and my friends would be like "who's that?" Me: "Oh just a girl I met on an eating disorder site." XD.
I can´t wait for Friday...
ReplyDeleteDo you take vitamins or something like that?They could help you with your energy
Hello dear! I am sorry that you feel in a rut. I know how that is. The best possible thing is to do everything--even schoolwork. Maybe go to a bookstore and browse? shop for some goal weight clothes?
ReplyDeleteUgh. Can you get legit colds/sore throats from purging? Because I had a horrid purge day before yesterday and have had a sore throat since yesterday. sucks since friday I am going out with my best friends for my bday, and leaving for new york the day after.
energy! try emergen-c!!!! and do some quick jumping jacks--will really fire you up.
keep so beautiful!