Slow start up again

This will be kind of short. I hope because I have a lot to do this morning. I'm staying over my ex's house tonight and we are going to my family's house tomorrow morning. I'm mostly packed but I'm still trying to get ready so I can leave for the last day of classes. 

I'm back down to 89lbs. At least I'm in the 80's. I'll be able to use my mom's awesome scale tomorrow night, I'm excited and scared of it. I'd hate to find my scale has been horribly off. I don't know if I want to eat today. I had a small binge last night, about 1200 cals at once. Then I purged which wasn't fun, haven't done that is a little while. My stomach is empty and there are no hunger pains. I didn't even have hunger pains yesterday. I was just mentally hungry. Hunger is just a feeling. I was fine for the most part. I was a bit dizzy and groggy most of the day, but I made it through with out issue, and I had 350 cal. I'm having green tea for now and I'll see how it goes from there.I feel really fat at the moment though. I'm hating this.

I want to be close with my ex but while his girlfriend is around he's all nervous. He doesn't want people to know about us. But when we are alone he'll sudden;y cling to me like he hasn't seen me in years, with tender passionate kisses and lay his head on my shoulder like he's in pain. I hope I'm not making it worse. I know he's confused, hell I'm confused. His girlfriend has been annoying me, she's so damn childish and he says she doesn't really tell him much, like if anything bothers her. I don't know, I just want him back. Our friends are rooting for us to get back together. I won't force and answer from him, or rush him. I just don't want to get hurt. More than that I don't want him to be unhappy or hurt.