Emptytales

 

Yucky yucky 90lbs. That's a stick in my side today. I'm gonna just have my cereal bar (90) and my healthy choice meal (260) today. No breakfast, im not even hungry which is surprising. I'm thinking of having a green tea before I leave for school though.

As for today's other plans I mad lunch for my ex again. He's not in a good mood this morning, he called me kinda upset but didn't say why, but he came to me about anyways. Which is really nice. I'm bringing him his favorite drink (Malta's) so that should cheer him up.I'm hoping that girl who was talking shit about me making him lunch is there today. So I can smile all the while. I'm a very spiteful person. It's not my favorite thing about myself but its there non the less, and I can be really mean about it, but I'll stay quite. Silent spite is more fun anyways.

I'll be leaving to Visit my family soon too. There is a computer there and I know how to delete my past pages so I'll still post. Hopefully by the end of the day I can be back in the 80's. I might skip on the snack today, I don't know. I still don't feel like eating. I ate enough this weekend for like a months worth of food. I'm probably exaggerating but it doesn't feel that way. The only thing not having me go off the deep end is my ex. He's been right there beside me the whole time. He stops me when I binge all at once. But eating normal amounts of food is still a binge too me too.

I need to get back down to size. Shrink! I need to shrink! 

I feel huge and I hate it.