2 Pop tarts, a cereal bar, a bowl of cereal, a nutri-grain bar, pretzels, rice cakes, a cookie, a gramcraker with nutella and a healthy choice meal.
...7 extra strength Excedrin...
...Purge purge purge ...
...until 92lbs again...
...FML...
My chest hurts, I'm still shaking, I have homework to do, I'm getting up at 3:45 to leave by 6am, and I have to walk the dog.
I've been crying for most of the day, and overly angry, overly emotional.
I must be nuts
...crazy...
I feel better and I don't want to eat for a while.
When I do, strictly fiber, fruits and veggies.
I feel so sick, but I deserve this, I just keep fucking up.
Nothing new.
I have to take it one day at a time, if I try to think a head too far, I might break down again, looking ahead is lonely and depressing.
I keep fucking up too but I gain weight, at least you don´t, that´s good!
ReplyDeleteAnd you don´t deserve this, not at all
*hugs*
xx
So sorry dear. I wish I could help more, but I cant do much in a little box. I cant even give you a hug. I can however, assure you that I m thinking of you and that I wish the bestest best best for you.
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