Eating and purging is all that I do. I hate it. I hate that every picture I have, I look fat. I hate that my mirror is telling me the same thing. As well as my stupid scale.
I'm still 92lbs, but I just can't bring myself to keep down food.
I just want 85 and to stay there.
I worked out for and hour and I want to do more. I want ot do that everyday.
No more fat.
No more flab.
I'm done, I want to have a good birthday and I want to be happy.
I can't wait to see my ex today, we don't have to talk about this crap, or think about it unless I want to. And I don't, I just want to fade out for a while.
I want to say a big thank you to Broken and Erin rose. You guys are always commenting here and its really nice to see helpful words and encouragement. I'm so sick of felling this way.
I´m sorry you are feeling this way, it sucks, I know.
ReplyDeleteYou are beautiful even if you don´t see that
xx
Oh dearie. I just wish that you didnt have to go through this. i can't say it enough--but weight is not equal to happiness.
ReplyDeleteLife > weight. You > your body
Youre gorgeous--wear it.