Oh job where art thou??

Last few days ahve been up and down, weight and happiness wise.

90-92-90-92...

92lbs damn...

I keep screwing up but I haven't binged or purged. My record being now 10 days.

Why does it feel like more. How sad.

Went to china town yesterday with Z (my ex) and two other friends. Tried bubble tea and ate Vietnamese food. I had mixed veggies and rice, some soup, and fried shrimp...not to happy about the fried part.

I had 3 freaking fiber one bars and was in the bathroom most of the night and this morning.

??Some how still 92lbs before and after??

While we were in china town S (ex's ex) was also around (cause she wanted to come to china town with her friends as it just so happens also for bubble tea...but whatever) we didn't run into them, besides they all had a curfew of 5pm and it was way to late for the little children to be outside.

Overall it was fun.

I applied to Holister but I'm if-y with that. I mean they are apparently always hiring people their( meaning they are firing a lot of people too) but when I looked at all the girls I was intimidated as hell. 

First of all you have to wear the brand as a uniform (what ever style is in fashion) and damn near every girl was tall, tanned, and toned. They looked like models, and so thin. I don't fit in their, I felt like a pale chubby midget. It was warm in there though because the store is set up to be like summer time. With video screen windows looping people swimming at the beach, most of the girls working were in flip flops, tank tops and shorts, and the heat was blasting.

Don't really think I want to work there but a jobs a job in the end. Sadly I'd prefer stop and shop >.<

(crazy navigating that place)

Going to the gym today hoping to blast at least 600 cals, with 1hr and a half of straight up cardio and ab and inner thigh exercise.

I love the treadmill and the elliptical (I burn 100 cals in 15 mins on those!) but I was really pround when I did the leg lift. At the time I was 90lbs and Z was telling me to have strong legs you have to be able to lift your own weight or more. I asked them to put 100 (thats been my cover weight for everyone not to say crap, might bump it up to but its hard when my friend wears size 3 pants and she's 104... her but is huge in a good way, im flat as a board. oh but anyways) they put the weights on and I did 3 reps of 10. When I got off I was like oh that's good right. Z said "yes very cause you did 115lbs."

I felt great and I love working out at the gym. Hopefully I can join planet fitness its 20 a month but me and Z were gonna split it cause you can bring a partner for free so that would be 10 each.