Challenge day 6

Weight: 92lbs

Days B/P free: ...1...

(I messed up last night. I feel like shit right now. I nearly passed out.)

Yesterday I was hanging out with my friend, her sister and mom and was having fun, I walked about 5.6 miles in total. We went to the nail salon, but I opted out because all I have are purple-ish bedded stubs for nails right now.

We hung out at her house for a while. They had breakfast but I passed on that too, saying I ate already. 

My bestie's mom, who is practically like my mom invited me to go to the dinner with them. I was honored because it was really just supposed to be a night for her and her girls.

I was also very nervous. We went ot this lasauna place on 8th ave that they had heard about on the travel channel. 

It was a long wait and the place was very tiny but everything smelled heavenly. 

Her mom and sister wanted me to eat more, but thankfully my bestie stood up fr me saying what Z had told me before I went out.

"Eat what you want, don't let these people pressure you to eat." 

We were all joking about it, but I was nervous as hell, cheesey sausy calories taste so good.

But I got a salad, had to peices of garlic bread and a small bite of eggplant parm.

When I finally got home, I tried to exercise but for some reason I was so hungry. I could stop myself, so  grabbed a fiber plus bar. Then I went at the cereal. By my second bowl I stopped but I was freaking out. 

I wasn't sure what to do, there was no one to call at 12am, I really didn't want to gain more, or stay the same, but it had been so long since I purged. I caved though. I over did it, because I purged until parts of my dinner came up.

I somehow managed to get down to 92lbs this morning but I feel ill and I know Z will be mad at me. I feel like a failure.
Also I posted a picture up on FB (IDGAF bout hiding my face atm)

and my aunt (who knows about my ED now) wrote,
"U can ur bones , not a good look"
I got really pissed iff at that, because I don't know its like advertising my ED. Why don't they all start posting shit on FB about it already...

I'm just gonna move onto my challenge. It keeps my mind preoccupied.

Challenge day 6

I'd have to say that music in general is important to me, but I'm not much for idolizing musicians or bands. I'll just go by what I listen to the most and for the longest...

That would have to be Linken Park.

Even though they're style has changed, I still love their music.