Cliff notes of my sad life

A lot has happened and I haven't had the will to write or do much of anything. I have been getting to the gym a lot though, and I'm going again tomorrow.

The cliff notes reason as to why I privatized my blog is because my mom yet again found it.

I was really upset.

She goes and calls my ex up and is arguing with him for hours. She's gonna kill her self, she won't stop, she's lying to you. 

I tell him everything, as for stopping and suicide I was damn near close to it with all the crap that keeps piling up.

I'm so sensitively lately I get down over every little thing.

But my mother has had me depressed the most (in close competition with my ex's ex girl who still wants to get back with him)

She called me up asking If I knew she read my blog again. I told her I knew and that I knew about the convo she had with my ex. She told me I should be more stright forward with people. So I told her ok, I really don't want to talk to you right now. She then contuned to tell me off, saying she was done with my  "drama" that I'm doindg this all to get back with my ex and if I'm that desperate I'm better off getting pregnant. Then she told me not to talk to her anymore and hung up on me.

A minute later she texts me...

"good luck with all your drama don't bother with any of us till you seek some professional help thank you"

...that was about a week ago, and I haven't talked to her since.

So apparently I'm drama-ful because I so asked for everyone to get into my business. I'm using my ED to get back with my ex...because that's working out so well. He always says how if I didn't have this damn thing it would be better.

I'm a horrible daugter / dating material. 

What ever.
My sister turns 12 tomorrow so calling there should be a great fun time...

I'm down to 90lbs as I last checked but I'll see what my scale says in the morning, since I haven't eaten since 1pm today.I won't be eating till...I don't know when, I'm not really hungry.

Tomorrow is the work out again...not to thrill because this bitc-girl (ex's ex) is tagging along again, like she did Monday, and will tomorrow and Thursday as well as friday.

I really can't stand her, she gets to hug my ex in public, but I can't.

(god lets just call him Z for now and she's S)

People are all on her side for being with him, and Z and me aren't supposed to be intimate. I should be fine since I know that's not the truth and that I go home with him at the end of the day (sleeping over again tomorrow) But I want to be able to hug him and kiss him, scream it to the world that we are together...if we were together.

I wish she'd just go away...

Theme song of my sad heart "the boy is mine "

lol

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